So as the weight continues to shred I’m noticing that my arms are hanging longer and longer. If I lay my arm flat my arm looks just as fat as it was pre op. I’m really hating this and find it quite disgusting. I realize that at one time they were filled with lumpy fatness, but that fat is going and now I have the worst bat wings ever! I want to wear sleeveless and strappy tops/dresses and I’m not sure how comfortable I’ll feel doing so b/c if I lift my arm that shit looks crazy. For real.
Then there is the whole belly issue. To explain, pre op I had what I called a B shaped belly. Like it was seriously shaped like the letter “B” The top belly being smaller than the bottom more obnoxius belly. Albeit smaller and slimming, it’s still like this huge pouch that I just can’t get rid of. I reached out to a highly recommend plastics doc, who has extensive experience doing body lifts, tummy tucks, arms, etc for those of us who have had weightloss surgery. I really want these arms trimmed and the belly pouch gone like yesterday. Those are the two areas that I’m completely self-conscious about. It’s horrible and I’ve even figured out how to contour my body so that my man can’t really see how wretched it really is during our sexing.
I have even considered taking a knife to that pouch myself and getting the ball rolling, but than I envision bleeding out and the ambulance not arriving on time and them someone linking this blog post to that and I’ll end up in some mental asylum and my daughter grows up hating me and spirals out of control. So yeah….that picture keeps my ass in the gym doing cardio, abs and anything and everything to burn as much fat off as I possibly can. Then there’s the whole, having another child consideration. I do want another child, and I want that child by the time my daughter, who’s turning 1 years old next week, turns two. I want to be done having kids by 35, plus my then 2 yo will be able to assist, so in my mind its a plan.
So I may just have to masking tape my fat ass arms in and rock all the cute summer gear I plan to purchase for the low-low price b/c I’ll be wearing larges and such. The belly, I just don’t know what I can do about it. I attribute it to being the primary reason that I’m still in 14w presently. I can wear some 12ws, but they are a little more snug (thanks to that damn pouch) than I prefer. Summer dresses I can wear large or extra large. Just depends on how its made. I’m the maxi dress queen so I’m good for a large in those. I have a big ass, hips and a very small waist so shopping sometimes presents a challenge but I make it work. Nothing like having a great tailor on hand to nip and take in where necessary. I guess I’ll just have to see how this all plays out….ugh